To be fair, I’ve been colonised since before I was born. I wasn’t born colonised. I didn’t come into existence colonised. I’m not colonised by the colonised, either.
But Ive been colonised a lot, and since I was a child, Ive been colonised my whole life. And while some of that has to do with the fact that my parents were colonised, it is also a result of the way that I was raised. My father was born in India, but he was also raised in the UK, and it was an interesting cultural mix.
I was born and raised in India and my parents were born in India. I wasnt born within Britain, which is a big deal to me because I was raised in Britain and I have great British relatives (and some of my family went to India for extended periods of time). It’s not that I don’t want to be British, it’s just that I have a lot of things in common with my Indian relatives.
I was raised in India, but I’ve lived here for most of my life. I’m Australian but have lived in the UK for about a year. I was also raised in India, but I have lived in the UK for a year.
I don’t think it’s that surprising that I have certain ethnicities in common with my Indian family. When I was very young I grew up with two Indian cousins that my mother loved, who are both British. I know a few other Indian relatives now too, but as a British person I feel like I belong to the UK.
What if your family isn’t from the UK and you don’t feel the need to hide it? You’re not alone. Even if you’re not completely British, a small number of you don’t feel the need to hide your heritage from the British. We all have some vague ancestral origin that no one else knows about.
I know a few people who have a certain Indian background, but they feel guilty about it. It reminds me of the British, because for all their advances and technology, they still feel the need to hide anything from outsiders. The British, in particular British men, have their own version of this cultural hang-up. We all have a certain level of “self-consciousness” that we need to hide. I think we all feel that the British are hiding something from us.
I love your analogy, but is there something different about people whose families and cultures were colonised? I guess it is possible that there are some people whose families were colonised and they don’t feel any guilt about it. It may be something to do with the way the colonisation happened, or it may just be that the people in question have not had enough exposure to their own cultures in order to feel they can talk about them without sounding self-conscious.
So as the world becomes more and more colonised, it’s understandable that people may feel a little guilty about being colonised as well. But I think that a lot of colonised people feel less guilty about this than people who were born in the colonies. This is because it’s something that happened and it happened to you, and it’s up to you to find out what happened or to let it go.
The only colonised people I’ve met who were less self conscious than I was were native-born Americans, who were also born in the colonies. But at least they knew what they were talking about.